Nervous

Well now I certainly was not expecting that to happen.

Came home a bit later than I wanted to from work, nothing unusual there!  Sat and had some dinner, expecting about 10/11 friends and our Adoption Case worker to arrive and have an evening with us all to chat through what it means to support Yve and I as we work through the Adoption Process.

While I was getting changed out of work attire, especially since I had spilled some of dinner down it while I was chatting with Yve’s mum on the phone, and heard more and more people arriving downstairs.  I suddenly felt really nervous about what was coming up that evening.

Question Mark

Nervous, not about my friends and what they would say, but more nervous about what I was going to feel or say in response to how they were going to be and say about Yve and I; really weird.  Why was I so nervous about my feelings about what these people would say, I trust them, they were invited because of their relationship with Yve and I, what did I have to be nervous about…

Well shortly after Chris arrived she asked Yve if we were going some where nice, puzzled look, what are you doing with your evening she continued.   Transpires bit of miscommunication, misunderstanding that we were to make ourselves scarce for this evening, that we are not supposed to be here.  So now What?

Well had we realised we were not to be there, we would have organised to go out for dinner and not wolf down some immediately after getting home from work….

Had we realised we were not to be there, we would have organised to have gone to the movies or some other Date Night activity…

Had we realised we would have happily left them with it and a key and let them lock up after themselves as well…

As it was a very kind couple lent us the keys to their house, we went, I took Honey for a walk and then we just chilled with a cuppa tea and X-Factor.

Still feel a bit weird now that I am home and they have all left and we are all alone again, nice text from Chris our Case worker, helps although I am preaching on Sunday and Chris is visiting that as well, what a weekend this is going to be…